Dreams - Duvet Day

Have you ever had like such a great dream you didn't want to wake up? You just wanted to stay there but someone interrupts your dream and then you can't get back there like that doorway has been closed to you...hmmmmm....yes this is me talking and not after drinking copious amounts of alcohol or taking drugs but me COMPLETELY SOBER.

So, the picture might seem a bit morbid but that's simply because the majority of my dreams are and to some they might be frightening BUT to me it's just like a day in the life. The dream i had the other night was more like a movie than a dream and i remember it clearly like i watched the DvD of it last night. Just like the majority of them it was supernatural and i was being haunted yes yes am like a beckon for ghosts ----in my dreams silly not the real world!!!!

Maybe my dream is setting the scene for the movie I'm planning to watch this weekend....Haunting in Connecticut!!!! The trailer sure looks scary ---if you've seen it ---post a comment and tell me what you thought---without saying too much!!!

Sweet Fetish!!!!

I hardly ever think far into the future ….hmmmm maybe that isn’t true I do think of the future but I hardly ever imagine my future to be complicated. To be full of health complications…I think sometimes people take their health for granted---me included. I’ve recently seen first hand how your health can go KAPUT overnight----like take Diabetes for instance. Now, I love cream cake and I take about 6 sugars in a Starbucks Almond Americano (NAUGHTY NAUGHTY) and let’s not forget the jelly beans---these are the confessions of a girl obsessed with the world of HARIBO. Yes, if I could live my life in a movie it would be Charlie & The Chocolate Factory but the old version not the Johnny Depp one!!!! In the old version I’d be the FAT kid (I forgot his name, LOL) the one that can’t get enough of the sweets. SO, now I’m thinking HOLY MOTHER OF JESUS I’m going to get attacked by diabetes and believe me I saw the damage it does---legs looking like they’re rotting---legs being sawed off (GAAAAAAAAAAAAA, I sound like Jigsaw now!!!) But guess what I’m not quitting the sweets but on up side I might be moving abroad shortly and I think I’ll be forced to quit the sweetie fetish TT.TT

AnnoyinG Classmates

In my class I have to suffer just to learn. Yes, i make SACRIFICES in order to learn!!!! What is the cause of my suffering you might ASK and like it or not I'll be telling you ---WHY i endure so much pain---ANNOYING CLASSMATES. Now now there are different reasons why i get annoyed and part of the fact is that i run a Bush Regime ----ZERO TOLERANCE for Wise Ass Remarks. I totally hate when someone thinks they're more intelligent then they actually are and part of the reason for that is their complete lack of intelligence.

It's in their general mannerisms and the tone of voice this smug attitude that deludes them into believing that they are the EINSTEIN of our generation. Lets run the list of the typical am SMARTER THAN THOU ATTRIBUTES-

1. Asking unnecessary questions----when learning language for instance why say---We (ENGLISH PEOPLE) don't say this the same as the Japanese do----WHY do you Japanese say things that WAY-----isn't the answer SIMPLE because their not pharking ENGLISH!!!!! STOP WASTING MY LESSON TIME.

2. Patronising tone----talking down to you and attempting to explain things to you like they're actually JAPANESE because they happened to travel there on holiday. This doesn't make you Japanese or CLEVER ---it just means you're well travelled!!!!! It doesn't make you my TEACHER now and if you ask them a question based on their unfounded assertion ---you will unravel this INTELLECTUAL FACADE!!!!

3. I could go on for days but I think I'll just turn into a bubbling mass of PUSS--HAHAHA---well I've a tendency to exaggerate BUT fact is these things must be at the top of my list because i typed them first!!!!!

SO when you hear people say they SUFFER for their ART chances are they really DO:)

Snob on the Bus!!!

You might not know this but I do not drive!!! You’re probably thinking seriously how are you LIVING without a car---pretty self evident I guess as I’m still blogging. But I’ve never really been in much of a rush to get anywhere and fact is---I don’t mind public transportation. Hmmmm maybe I take that back---sometimes when I’m on the bus I think this is society what a MESS!!!! If it’s not the rude, bullish ways of passengers as they get on or off the bus---they will knock you flying and not even think to say SORRY. I think in my head what the hell has happened to society and the simpler things in life like manners!!! I mean it isn’t rocket science---No it’s straight old logic if the bus aisle is narrow and you aren’t skinny you can’t expect to just MARCH down the aisle head on without HITTING the other passengers. CAN YOU STOP DOING THIS ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Believe it or not this isn’t what I was going to type up on the post but that’s life sometimes the unexpected happens.

Anyways, I don’t mind the bus the majority of the times and it’s a great learning experience and an eye opener to the real world. I mean like you see the problems you only here about on the news and these things you don’t really see that much when you’re in your car. I mean your car is convenient your own little space BUT it’s kind of disconnecting you from other people you might never ever associate with in your normal daily life. OK---this is another major DIGRESSION.

This morning I was reading my Japanese textbook as I’ve got a lesson to attend later and like usual I didn’t do my homework. WHAT’S NEW!!!!!! So, I’m sitting there reading my book when he bus inspectors get on the bus. He spots me reading my book and I start fumbling around in my bag looking for my pass and like always I can’t just simply reach it without deep BAG exploration. So, he walks off and when he comes back round he doesn’t bother to check it. You might be thinking why am I mentioning this BUT this in itself annoyed me----SNOBBERY. It’s really amazing what you can get away with when you look a certain way, so I’m keeping it simple and calling it SNOBBERY!!!!

CRazy BaNaNas

I'm not exactly sure when you start to call a murderer a Mass Murderer but like on 2 different sides of the world people were killing others than killing themselves. Now that really is depraved.....killing people intentionally...planned....premediated is messed up BUT to do it and than kill yourself...I've questions on this. If these people really just had enough with life why not just kill yourself and leave people who chose to go on with their existence to continue to do so. But you go out of your way to kill people and than KILL yourself i find this even more despicable than just killing someone and drinking a cup of coffee the following morning. I don't mean to trivialise murder BUT this is something i hate to hear......KILL than SUICIDE it has to be even more harrowing than just cold blooded murder. I think I'm becoming too morbid ....maybe a result of too much Law & Order and Dexter on the old TV.

NOTE TOO SELF----do not blog after 4 double vodkas.......if it wasn't abundantly clear i'm referring to the shootings in Germany and America this week.

Pissy Paradise

I remember coming home from school and watching Super Gran. I used all there was to life was to live and grow old. How wrong was I!!!!! When I watched Super Gran I didn't know anything about old peoples care homes. How strange? I knew all about children's homes but not old peoples.....maybe this was because they didn't affect me.

Well on Saturday i visited an old peoples care home and yes yes I'm referring to it as pissy paradise. But that's just my sense of humour----it's far from being a PARADISE!!!! It's a depressing hell hole and I've decided no matter what if my mom gets dementia or whatever I'm not putting her into one of those places. I know it's a lot of work to do BUT after being twice to an old peoples home i couldn't DO it. It's a living nightmare---they are all just SITTING there waiting to DIE. It smells!!!!

Bless the people doing the job BUT it doesn't half pong. The restroom area is just full of old people SITTING doing nothing. It's no wonder they deteriorate so rapidly in those places---a place of pills and ZERO stimulation. Just sit there FESTER and ROT!!!! It's awful. I wouldn't wish a trip to pissy paradise on anyone. If you have never experienced an old peoples home----it's something everyone should experience just once. I know it's hard work but it would be so much better if you went there and it didn't smell and if the old people weren't just congregated in a room doing nothing!!!!!

Another one of the most depressing things I've ever seen :(

I'm Just Not That Into You

Like seriously I watched that chick flick --He's Just Not That Into You!!!! I have a list of problems with this movie---
1. It sucks
2. It f**king sucks
3. I'm still trying to get over the fact that it SUCKS

What the hell were they thinking ....oh when you make a film about relationships it can just be so boring that they wouldn't even notice --WOMEN---they watch any old shit about romance. Why did I not like this movie --mainly because it was just so FLAT---nothing amazing happened and I'm not stupid I understand what they were aiming for BUT it just wasn't done exceptionally well. If you weren't disappointed with this film---I'm blaming you for allowing Hollywood feel it can get away with producing this sh*t for the paying public!!!!!

His Dark Materials

A while back i decided to go to a creative writing class but now that i think about it....a while back is like 5 years ago --SHOCK HORROR--TIME is not on my side. I had a really funny teacher who just loved to chat away and he always told you the same story at some point ( i love when people do that but only when they sound passionate). Anyways, he was well read...always recommending books and i took him up on these recommendations on more than one occasion mind, which led to one of my most favourite reads for a long time.

Here's the thing. The story is supposedly aimed at teenagers and those years have long gone....i say long but i guess to some that's like centuries (HAHAHAHA)---the fact that I'm mocking someones age probably shows why this trilogy appealed to me. But a great story isn't age discriminative--RIGHT :|

The recommendation he made all those years ago was His Dark Materials by Philip Pullman and what a fabulous read!!!! I guess that will totally depend if you love fantasy type fiction full of magic and that kind of thing (watching The Golden Compass just isn't cutting it). I finished the whole trilogy in a week...yes, yes, i hardly went out....it was winter, i had cup on top of cup of tea and my duvet and the magical world of Lyra Belacqua which unfolds through the three books. Funnily enough the first book was called Northern Lights and that reminded me of good old times visiting Amsterdam:).

I forgot the point of the post for a second or two----so, today i did something i've never done before and i've booked a ticket to go and see Part 1 of His Dark Materials at the theatre---ALONE!!!!! Now this is either a sign that i'm getting old or that i'm a sad loser or maybe both----a sad old loser :) I thought i'm going to do something on my own for a change and i've booked my ticket to go and see this on the evening before my birthday. I didn't book the ticket to see part 2--yet---in case i think it's RUBBISH but i'm hoping it's great and forget what the critics say ( you can always pay someone enough to say something good)!!! Now i just found out it's 3 hours long---OMG---it better be FANTASTIC or i'll die the night before my birthday.

Waiting Game

Waiting for something you really want is like a form of torture. The person who is withholding what you want to hear totally has ultimate power over you. There is nothing you can do but WAIT. No matter what you try to do to pass the time away, just doesn't seem to work because you're just wanting to hear that hidden truth. WAIT, WAITING, STILL WAITING. You wish you had a way to control time but NO NO NO you have to WAIT. This act of waiting is totally driving me mad and the fact is the wait itself might just be pointless. The thing I'm waiting to hear might not be GOOD NEWS but the fact is it could be GOOD NEWS and it's better to think that you're waiting to hear GOOD news as opposed to BAD NEWS. But the fact is the person that is withholding the news knows whether the news they're holding onto is GOOD or BAD and you would think they could just send out the BAD news faster than the GOOD? But they don't and then you reach the logical conclusion that it must be that they're enjoying torturing ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The wait continues :(

PS. The picture of the cat in the hat is because Google says today is Dr Seuss Birthday :)