If I could just melt away, I think I'd take that option BUT I can't erase the events of the day before yesterday. I decided to go out clubbing and I really didn't want to go but someone kept pressing me "Come on", "Pleaassssssssssseeeeeeeeeeeeeee" and I went against my better instincts. I went OUT and things went WRONG.
I wish I could run away from what I did and not have to face the person ever again BUT I will. I totally lost my temper with an old love interest and threw a drink in his face, kicked him and verbally abused him and his friend. From memory it was over something very trivial but it probably came from a deeper place while under the influence.
I'm so disgusted with myself because I'm sure I'll go down in his estimations now and if only I could erase the day before yesterday. I spoke to him and apologised and he said that it's fine and he isn't holding it against me. But I could DIE from the shame of IT. If only I could erase the day before yesterday *SIGH*
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